Lol because I am bored I want to vent here for a while. 

I felt good today. :) Smiling the whole day, didn’t even cry. :) But as always, I know sadness will kick in tonight. So I miss my bestfriend. Well we’re not really officially bestfriends, we didn’t label each other as that but we both know we are bestfriends. I miss her so much but I’m really annoyed at her. Lol. Wait know, it’s just that I miss her so much and whenever we talk all she talk about was asjkdfhaskdf. She told me not to lie to her when I’m sad, then I told her I’m sad but she just hugged me and went to ajlksdhflkajs after. That’s actually one of the main reason I like being alone more often. The whole week I didn’t join my friends during break, I just stayed in the library. I don’t even talk to my friends unless I can fake being happy. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired that I actually choose to be sad. Well I don’t actually choose it, it’s more like the only option I have because I don’t know how the hell to be happy. Lol. I hate this. “‘Tis the season to be jolly falalalala lalalala.” Well I’m not jolly. Lool. Hay. Life. K.